[He saw the look of horror on her face but Pike knew that it wasn't pity but more understanding the full weight of what living like that was like. La'an had gone through something similar during her captivity, when her fate seemed gruesome and entirely certain. She knew what it was like to carry that sort of weight and he could read the sorrow in her expression at knowing someone she cared for had to face that. It was genuinely touching to know she felt that way.

When she shared her own story it was every bit as heartbreaking for him to listen to. He knew how dedicated La'an was to saving everyone she could, he knew the personal burdens she placed on herself. To be forced to make a choice like that must have been awful. He also didn't miss that she'd had to watch another friend die.]

No, La'an. You didn't. But I'm sure that doesn't make it feel much less like all those deaths are your responsibility. But they're not. It's not your fault.