[ Some part of her expected him to hate her for what she'd done; perhaps it's the part of her that hates herself for it. Does he understand what she would have been willing to do? Had anyone told him about her past? About the Gorn ritual? No one could be this grateful to her for letting people die.
Only she'd seen the look on James's face when he'd learned this Sam was still alive. That grief and hope haunted her dreams and she knows in her heart that he wouldn't have faulted her for anything she might have done to save Sam's life... Except for maybe that final step.
She doesn't deserve to be held like this, but she melts into his embrace anyway, holding on with what little strength she has left. And even though she hadn't explained to Sam, she can't not explain to Jim. ] The other you — he lost his brother. I couldn't bear for you to lose yours.
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Only she'd seen the look on James's face when he'd learned this Sam was still alive. That grief and hope haunted her dreams and she knows in her heart that he wouldn't have faulted her for anything she might have done to save Sam's life... Except for maybe that final step.
She doesn't deserve to be held like this, but she melts into his embrace anyway, holding on with what little strength she has left. And even though she hadn't explained to Sam, she can't not explain to Jim. ] The other you — he lost his brother. I couldn't bear for you to lose yours.